Saturday, August 28, 2010

Sleep

It is 10 pm and I am torn between making the most of this rare quiet time by watching Glee uninterrupted or go to bed because I am so sleep deprived. It's Sunday tomorrow and our helper will be on her day off. Hubby is on a business trip. I know if I don't force myself to go to bed now, I'll be regretting it in the morning. But then again, when I passed Poseidon to our helper this morning so that I could catch up on some sleep, my eyes stayed shut but my brain was on over-drive for an hour and a half while I lay in bed. I got up even more tired. How did I survive the first 2 times with Boy Wonder and Nachos?

I have to admit Boy Wonder was the easiest baby to look after. He was extremely punctual in terms of his feeding and sleeping schedule. All I can remember was how I knew exactly what time to put him down for his sleeps and knew what time he would wake up. I remember giving him his bottle, burping him and putting him down in his crib and not worrying about him crying. I really think it was because he was such an easy baby that we decided to have Nachos not too long after.

With Nachos I can honestly say it was a blur. I can not remember most of what it was like the first year of her life. I remember her crying alot, how I did not have enough milk and how she pooed all over me one night. I think I went through a short period of post-natal depression due to my breastfeeding issues. But still I am proud to say I persevered and breastfed Nachos purely for 6 months. I only stopped after I got a breast infection and had to stop due to my antibiotics. Nachos didn't want to breastfeed anymore after she got used to taking formula. I also sleep trained her after I stopped breastfeeding. I do remember life being much easier after that.
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With Poseidon I originally told myself I would breastfeed him for 6 months as well then sleep train him. But at this moment I am thinking I will only last for 3 months. I have no idea where my copy of Richard Ferber's Solve Your Child's Sleep Problems went so I bought myself a new one a few days ago to brush up on the whole sleep training thing. My goal at the moment is to find out how early I can start. I am crossing my fingers that I remembered wrong and that I can start at 3 months instead of 6!

My friend D asked me how come I don't feel guilty that I am only going to breastfeed Poseidon for 3 months when I breastfed Nachos for 6. I told her it's mainly because I have 3 kids. I feel that it takes a bit too much time breastfeeding Poseidon when I have 2 other kids to look after. I have literally helped my 2 older kids in the bath, on the toilet, tidying up, and a whole bunch of other stuff while Poseidon is breastfeeding. I don't think I can keep that up.

I have also started to wonder if there is a relation between breastfeeding and babies sleeping well. Boy Wonder was formula/bottle fed since day one. He was the perfect sleeper. Nachos was breastfed the first 6 months. These first 6 months were a blur. Things got better once she was on the bottle and predictable. At the moment Poseidon's sleep patterns are all over the place. He does not sleep well on his own during the day and needs to be held and rocked before he can fall asleep. At night he sleeps next to me so he can feed through the night and for me to keep him asleep. Is it the breastfeeding? Or do I just don't have enough milk? The mysteries!

So anyway, pardon me as I blog less often for the next few weeks. Poseidon turns 2 months next week so that means only 1 more month before the human milk machine closes shop and the baby bottles are used for all its over priced worth.
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Sunday, August 08, 2010

Nostalgic

I was just watching some TV while Poseidon is sleeping in his rocker. It's Sunday so our helper is on her day off. Hubby, Boy Wonder and Nachos are in Melbourne so its been extremely quiet. I was just sitting there when I was reminded how this was what it was like when we first had Boy Wonder. How time flies.

We were living in South Horizons then and we didn't have a helper. Hubby was always at work and traveled a lot. I remember there were many afternoons when I took Boy Wonder out for walks along the water or went shopping across the street. There was nobody but me and Boy Wonder. Who would have known 6 years later, I'm doing the same thing again. But at least this time it will only be temporary.

Each time I look at our old pictures and look at our now 3 kids, I am overwhelmed with gratitude. We have come so far from our tiny apartment in Happy Valley. We used to pay HK$9700 for rent at South Horizons! And I remember lugging a vacuum cleaner back to our apartment because I was too cheap to take a cab. Now we have a car and we live in Central. At least each time we move back to Hong Kong, we're climbing up the social ladder.

I'm looking forward to having all 3 of them back from Melbourne on Tuesday. I like the peace and quiet, but nothing beats the peace I get from checking up on my kids fast asleep in their beds at night.